2012 was one of the saddest years of my life. 

And I pray to Allah the Almighty to give me the strength to move on.

Random Thoughts

It has been some time since I added in my last post. Many things happened during that duration. I co-organised an international conference in June - it was a success albeit all the obstacles that we had to go through. And my mom became sick at that time and was hospitalised for 2 weeks. That was a difficult time for the three of us. She's been diagnosed with an illness and is trying her level best to get back on track like before. I pray to God that she'll recover, InsyaAllah. The 2-week raya break that we had in Teluk Intan was a good one. Met with all the family members & relatives - definitely a well-deserved break. When I came back from kampung, it was time for the new semester. Had been a few hectic weeks for all of us. In the midst of all that, some friends and I went for a rendezvous somewhere on the island. I'm older now, therefore I should be wiser. But something happened during the outing that night. We met a group of 'people' that we know and surprise, surprise, one of them was hitting on me. As much as I felt uncomfortable about it, I didn't do much to avoid his flings. I reminded him several times of his status but I just did not want to humiliate him in front of the group - they come from this so-called elite group of officers and there is this 'agreed unstated' rules (which apply to both males and females) when they go out socialising. This is not to say that I am a sociable person because I don't go partying around. But that night, I was very much in control of myself. Needless to say, after many attempts, the fellow stayed away from me till the end. I suppose, he got the signals and probably, there is still some respect for the relationship that I've shared with him before (i.e. on a formal basis, of course). One of my friends said something like this ... "Probably that's the kind of 'openmindedness' that these officers are looking for." Well, I left it as it is. He and I will never be.

Full stop.