My Girl

Joo Yoorin (Lee Da Hae) is a tour guide in a small company in charge of running mini tours in the Jeju Island of South Korea. Her father is a gambling addict, but despite all the debts that he runs up, Yoorin always finds a way to help repay them. She leads a below-average life but is happy as long as she has her dad around her. Because of her father's gambling ways, she has had to move from country to country whenever her father runs from one place to another to avoid their debtors. This has in turn brought her the ability to converse fluently in Chinese and Japanese, which are of great help as a tour guide whenever she has to entertain tourists from China and Japan.
Seol Gongchan (Lee Dong Wook) is the only heir of the owner of L'Avenuel Hotel, which is one of the top hotels in Korea. His grandfather, Seol Woong, charges him with the duty of finding his granddaughter, who is also Gongchan's cousin. Seol Woong had disowned his own daughter, Gongchan's aunt, when she decided to marry a man not of his choice. However, when Seol Woong had a change of heart and wished to accept his daughter back, an earthquake struck where his daughter lived, and since then, he has lost all contact with his kin and perhaps the chance to make amends for his own stubbornness, to take care of his granddaughter and hopefully make things right.
Kim Seohyun (Park Si Yeon) is the girlfriend of Seol Gongchan. A rising star in the tennis world, she returns to Korea to look for Gongchan as she cannot forget him.
Seo Jung Woong (Lee Jun Ki) is the son of one of the main shareholders of L'Avenuel Hotel and also the best friend of Seol Gongchan. Unlike Gongchan who is responsible and hardworking, Jung Woong is a flirt who is known to have many girlfriends.
The story starts with Yoorin rushing to the airport. She is helping her friend delay a flight so that the tourists of her friend will not miss their flight. Out of ideas, she plays a damsel in distress, who is apparently mourning her impending death and her dying wish to see her boyfriend who is apparently on the flight. And so after much crying and the entire airport empathizing with her, she gets to get on board the plane to look for her boyfriend who never really existed. As she walks, she realizes she cannot find anyone and pretends to faint. Alas, she faints beside the seat of our male lead, Seol Gongchan, who knows a liar when he sees one. Although their first encounter is weird, it doesn't leave much of an impression in each other's mind.
Later, however, when Gongchan has to entertain a bunch of Chinese visitors and realizes he has no translator, he engages the services of Yoorin coincidentally and through Yoorin, his potential Chinese investors have a great time at the L'Avenuel Hotel branch in Jeju, and Yoorin has much credit to claim for it.
After a series of comical events including Yoorin staying at his hotel lodge without paying, and Yoorin selling his hotel fruityard's oranges to make a small profit (to clear her father's debts again), Gongchan's impression of Yoorin is one of a cheat and he would want to do anything to distance himself from her.
But then word from mainland Korea is that his grandfather is dying and at his bedside, Seol Woong, through his respirator, can only meekly repeat that he must not and cannot die until he sees his granddaughter again.
Driven by desperation and his love for his grandfather, Gongchan will do anything to ease his burden. When pointed out by his secretary that Yoorin bears a resemblance to his aunt, Gongchan hatches a plan to pass off Yoorin as his grandfather's long-lost granddaughter whilst he carries on searching for the real one.
Yoorin, who is desperate for money to repay her father's debt, is unwilling to do the job as it involves lying to a dying man, something that she staunchly refuses to do. But when Seol Gongchan desperately begs her and she realizes she is somewhat indebted to him for not bringing her to the police after her little business in his hotel, she caves in and pretends to the long-lost granddaughter.
And so things seem to be going well, with the search for Gongchan's long-lost cousin making progress and perhaps more importantly, the improvement of Gongchan's grandfather's conditions thanks to Yoorin. As Yoorin spends more time with Gongchan's family, she gets showered with the love she never received as a child and finds herself drawn to Gongchan. She finds herself changing from the liar that she once was to a person who tries to tell the truth when she can. But she knows all too well that her one-sided love will never materialize as the difference in social status between Gongchan and herself is too big.
But unknown to her, Gongchan is also slowly being drawn to her...

http://www.spcnet.tv/reviews/review.php?rID=1184

2006

Hari ini Hari Raya Haji. Aku rasa sungguh sedih kerana kali ini hanya beraya di Segamat. Ada satu rasa rindu yang tak dapat nak diceritakan. Aku rasa sungguh sedih juga kerana kehadiran Januari sudah membayangkan bahawa masanya sudah hampir untuk aku pulang semula ke negara roo. Mungkin Aidilfitri and Aidiladha yang akan datang aku akan merayakannya lagi sebagai anak perantauan. Manakan sama dengan suasananya di sini ... tak kan ada masakan mak aku.

Hari ini juga hari terakhir di tahun 2006. Umpama lagu di Akhir Disember nyanyian Kopratasa ... akan datang akhir Disember ini ... bulan di ranting pohonan dan angin yang bersisir dalam nafas malam mengalir antara bayang dan sepi sementara menunggu lebuh jagat ini ...

2006 adalah satu tahun yang sungguh berwarna warni dalam hidup aku. Ada gelap, ada cerah. Ada meriah, ada air mata. Ada dugaan, ada juga kesyukuran. Enam bulan terakhir 2006 ialah satu tempoh masa yang banyak membuka mata aku. Banyak peristiwa terjadi tak dapat aku lupa - kalahnya aku di dalam kekecewaan, dan bangkitnya aku semula di atas keyakinan dan sokongan yang tak pernah putus dari Mak dan Bapak aku - adalah yang paling bermakna sekali. Aku tidak akan lupa lagi apa itu erti kemahuan. cita-cita dan keberanian. Kenangan di utara juga mendewasakan aku sepertimana rasa insafnya aku bila menyaksikan banjir buruk yang melumpuhkan Segamat dan memusnahkan harta benda dan nyawa penduduk. Ia mengajar aku erti lain satu kesyukuran. Dan mana mungkin dapat aku lupakan mandi air ujan di belakang rumah dengan mak aku sebab tak de air selama seminggu. Kembali semula ke tanah air juga tiada tolok bandingnya bila dapat bertemu semula dengan sahabat handai. Keasyikan masing-masing mengejar impian merupakan pencetus semangat untuk aku terus memajukan diri. Terima kasih 2006.

Hari esok hari baru untuk kita. Aku tak ada resolusi tahun baru. Aku hanya bermohon kepadaNya agar diberikan perlindungan dan kekuatan kepada semua ahli keluargaku untuk menghadapi segala apa yang mungkin. Semoga semuanya selamat, sihat dan bahagia selalu. Untuk anda juga.

1st Love of a Royal Prince

There's the first royal prince, the son of a millionaire who knows nothing but money and thinks the world revolves around him. The second royal prince is Mr. Perfect who only cares and goes after his success and accomplishment. And between these two comes along a penniless girl who's nothing much of a kind but only full of faults except that she has a huge jolly heart and passion for life. Set in the world-renowned beautiful places and resorts, "First Love of a Royal Prince" takes a look at these three young people's story of finding their dream, true happiness as well as their true love. Numbers of exotic places like the stunning blue sea of South Pacific and the ever so white snow field of Sapporo(Japan) will spread before your very eyes.

http://content.mbc.co.kr/e_mbc/drama.asp?idx=7

The Sassy Girl

"Sassy Girl, Chun-hyang" is the 2005 interpretation of the "Legend of Chun-hyang". The story begins when Lee Mong-ryong is transferred from Seoul to a high school in Namwon, North Jeolla Province. Chun-hyang does her best to help Mong-ryong, her first love and the son of the Namwon Police Station chief, to enter a prestigious university. However, after meeting with Mong-ryong's first love, Chae-rin, Mong-ryong's love toward Chun-hyang is shattered, although Chun-hyang's love remains unwavering.
One day, Byeon Hak-do, CEO of a famous entertainment company, appears in her life. He exudes confidence that he can make any woman fall for him. But as Chun-hyang shows no interest in him, his self-esteem is damaged profoundly. Byeon Hak-do is determined to make her love him.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Delightful_Girl_Choon-Hyang

http://www.kbs.co.kr/drama/qgirl/media/photo/index.html

*Blur*

Kring ... kring ... kring ...

Dia: Hey you
Aku: Hey you
Dia: Dah tido ye
Aku: Ye ...
Dia: Sorry ... saya kacau awak memalam lewat nih
Aku: Kol bape?
Dia: Close to two ...
Aku: ermm ... dah pukul 2, nape tak tido lagi?
Dia: I can't sleep. Awakkk ... dengarlah
Aku: Ye, saya dengar nih ..
Dia: Bila nak datang sini lagi?
Aku: Hmm, saya tak sure la wak. Lambat sket kut. Nape?
Dia: Lambat lagi?
Aku: Iye. Awak sihat ke?
Dia: Saya ok. Saya nak bawak awak ke satu tempat.
Aku: Gi mana?
Dia: Rahsia. Tapi tempat yang awak suka.
Aku: Nak buat pe?
Dia: Ada laaa, awak ikut ye?
Aku: Mesti gi ke?
Dia: Hmm... tak sudi?
Aku: Tak la, saya memang nak jumpa awak pun, before saya balik.
Dia: Awakkk ... bleh tak jangan cakap pasal nak balik sana.
Aku: Kan tak lama lagi saya nak balik ...
Dia: .....
Aku: Awak? Awak?
Dia: Ade.
Aku: Tell me, what's bothering u?
Dia: Awak ... sebab awak ...
Aku: Huh?
Dia: Saya tak boleh tido sebab awak. Sebab awak.

Toooottt, tooootttt, tooootttt

I am Drunk

Song of the Harper
(Wonderful – Jill Barnett)

I kiss her
With lips open
And I am drunk
Without a beer.

-from the chapel of King Inyotef, ancient Egypt

My Very Own

Haihhh ... I still have time for all these peeps even when I know my work is going down the drain. Hampeh tul! I think I am becoming the Biggest Queen of Procrastination. And The Earl of C is going to eat me alive! Chomp! Chomp!

• Lucy Anne Odum & Scott Anthony Bufford
• Prince Raschid ibn Saud al Azarin & Polly Barrington
• Eirik of Ravenshire & Lady Eadyth of Hawk's Lair
• John Hawthorn & Claire Lang
• Sir Merrick de Beaucourt & Lady Clio of Camrose ...

If only

I have

My own

knight

in

shining armour ...

If only ...

If only ...

Dusyuuuuuummmmmmmm ...

Dealova

Kali nih, bila balik lagu Dealova tengah popular. Sebenarnya, dulu pernah Shahrin kasik lagu ni kat aku, aku je yang eksyen, decline tak mo. Sedap rupanya lagu ni. Lirik dia dalam maknanya. Mungkin Shahrin pon rasa macam tu.

Tajuk: Dealova
Artis: Once

Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu
Karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
Karena hati telah letih

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh
Aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
Tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
Oh bayangmu seakan-akan

(Chorus)
Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang memanggil rinduku padamu
Seperti udara yang ku hela kau selalu ada

Hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang
Tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang dan sepi

Aku Rasa ...

Aku tengah pening-pening lalat ni. Kecoh nak gi bank petang tadi, bila sampai dah tutup. Tu bapak aku tu la, dia balik lambat dari Haslita, pas tu nak terus gi bank. Soh plak aku drive, aku ni bila orang cam kecoh, aku tensed up tau. Teruih blur jadinya, kepala pon lama-lama seberat guni PKC kat tepi kandang si Tuah.

Sebenarnya, aku ni baru balik dari Jitra 2 hari lepas. Sekarang di Segamat dan esok mungkin akan bertolak ke Penang kalau tak de apa-apa hal. 4 posts yang sebelom ini (Jalan-jalan Jadi Escort, Petang 2 Syawal & Sayang Ku) sebenarnya posts yang aku tak berkesempatan nak upload kat blog ni. Kalau ke CC di Jitra pon, aku tak bleh nak buat byk benda, cuma sempat utk semak emails je memandangkan mak aku ada. Bukannya bleh tunjuk blog nih, kang byk pulak soklan dia. Dia memang lah sediakalanya curious, kang byk plak cite yang dia nak tau.

Aku sebenarnya terasa penat. Semenjak aku balik, tak pernahnya tetap di satu tempat lebih dari 2 minggu. Selalu dok kat atas jalan raya je. And my work -- hmmm, memang bergerak terlalu slow. Semakin risau bila mula difikirkan. Harap semuanya akan beres dalam 2-3 yang akan datang. Kalau tak siap jugak, sememangnya aku sendiri yang menempah maut. Bukannya apa, kalau aku tak tolong parents aku, kesian pulak kat dorang. Frankly speaking, aku rasa kurang senang bila bapak aku dah mula sibuk keje balik. Aku lebih suka dorang duduk-duduk relax kat rumah, jalan makan angin, enjoy sana enjoy sini. Nak buat apa lah susahkan badan ke sana sini. Dah tua, patut berehat je. Bukannya dia ada tanggungan lagi, hutang pon tak de. Aku memang bleh jaga diri aku sendiri. Tapi bapak aku suka dgn ini semua. Dah lebih 6 tahun dia cuti berehat pencen, aku lagi suka dia temankan mak aku je. Tapi mak aku kata, biar lah dia, he misses his work. Aku bukannya apa - risau dorang sakit je nanti ... Nak cakap lebih-lebih pon payah gak.

Kat Jitra, dulu ada Tuah ngan Jebat. Aku ada gak tolong berus badan dorang. Tapi now, dorang pon dah tak de. Ada jugak pengalaman baru dengan landlord rumah sewa kami. Anaknya footballer yang terkenal kat Msia, tapi aku pulak tak kenal, mak aku tau la. Hehehehe, mintak maap la makcik, saya ni memang tak reti bab sukan ni, sebab memang tak berminat. Puan Noorin plak punya la kerek. Rumah teres yang lagik kecik dari rumah Yap dulu dia perasan "sempurna"- ptui ptui ptui. Kipas angin ceiling pon tak diketahui jenamanya, dia perasa bagus. Cheh. Aku rasa some peeps in Jitra tu macam cekik darah agaknya. Nak duit je, nak plak bila dia tau kita orang luar. Haiiihhhhh ...

Aku jenjalan ke Alor Star gak. Sekarang ni aku dah agak pro gak ngan jalan-jalan kat sana. Kalau had nak carik jalan kuar to the hi-way or kalau lalu kat Kepala Batas tu tak la sesat lagi. One of these days, aku ngan mak aku nak gi survey Giant yang baru bukak kat Souk Al-Bukhary tu & kat Star Parade. Kat Jitra tu bukannya ada byk tempat yang bleh pegi, Yawata ngan Jitra Mall ada la.

Aku gi Penang gak. Kalau gi sana, mesti aku bengkek ngan mak guard tua berkedut gincu pink tu! Bila ingat pasai dia, rasa aku nak tenyeh gincu tu kat satu muka dia. Nasib baik nampak keta mata air ... huahahahaha, terus tak jadi marah lagi. Dan a trip to Gurney Plaza sudah menjadi satu kemestian. Beli baju Mattie, baju Cekelat, baju aku. Hehehehe ... sekali kala je.

Okaylah, aku chaloh dulu. Nak gi mamam.

Aku / Kau

Tunggu lah …

Akan tibanya waktu itu,

Untuk kau dan aku ...

Petang 2 Syawal

Hari ini 2 Syawal. Memang gembira rasanya di hati beraya di kampungku di Teluk Intan. Pengalaman menyambut hari lebaran di rantauan pada tahun lepas sememangnya sesuatu yang tidak segembira beraya di Malaysia. Dari rancangan TV yang pelbagai untuk menyambut kedatangan Ramadhan dan Aidilfitri, sehinggalah ke juadah-juadah enak di pasar/bazaar ramadhan. Baju raya ada, kuih raya ada, lemang, ketupat, rendang, nasi impit dan kuah lodeh, nasi impit dan kuih kacang, semuanya membangkitkan lagi keindahan menyambut raya di Malaysia. Dan bila dengar takbir raya, sungguh syahdu rasanya. Dah 4 kali aku beraya tanpa Opah aku. But I know she’s always there. Semalam abang and family datang ke rumah. Hujan pulak lebat, dari pagi hingga ke petang. Lepas hujan sidang, aku dengan mak aku gi beli telur dekat dengan kedai botol tu. Dari kedai, singgah kejap di rumah mak nyah. Dorang baru lepas menjamu seorang Dato’ yang datang beraya ke rumah dia. Makan mee goreng dengan udang galah lagi tu. Macam tu la kalau nak bodek orang. Tu bukan aku yang kata ok, tu anak dia yang kata.

Tahun ni je, Mak Nyah aku dapat 3 cucu. Bagus lah aku kata, rezeki pemberian Allah. Everything went well actually, sampaaaaiiii laaaa they popped the question. Tau tau la soklan ape yang aku maksudkan … ptui ptui ptui.

Salah ke kalau aku ni belum kahwin lagi? Hina ke aku ni sebab tak de orang nak kat aku? Aku tau la aku ni tak sehebat dorang, habis je belajo, semua terus kawin. 9 – 10 bulan lepas kawin terus beranak pinak. I know I sound harsh, but why don’t they for once think if they were in my shoes. How would you feel when at the end of the day they subtlely labeled you as a spinster? Aku tau la aku ni tak cantik, tak menarik macam dorang yang lain, serba-serbinya kurang.

Yeee … aku tau aku ni emosional sangat, tapi pada petang 1 Syawal semalam, aku betul-betul terasa. Rasa macam diri ni kurang sempurna. I would have given my reasons masa tu gak, but I didn’t. Silence is golden. Biar la apa yang dorang nak pikir. Lagipun, buat apa aku nak buang masa explain kat dorang, bukannya dorang paham, or nak paham pon. Tapi tu tak cukup for them you know, siap compare la aku dengan cousin aku yang sorang ni, hujung tahun lepas kawin, sekarang dah ada anak. Semacam satu kebanggaan bagi mereka – kind of “an achievement” - cam tu la. Aku tak rasa iri hati malah aku tumpang gembira. Kenapa dorang pon tak bleh nak tumpang gembira dengan pencapaian aku plak? Ni tak, siap ungkit-ungkit la pasal umur aku. Dah tua, tapi tak jugak kawin-kawin. Aku ingat tahun ni aku dah lebih bersedia nak tangkis bab kawin ni, tapi nampak gayanya semakin menjadi-jadi pulak. Agak sinis jugak la bila disebut berkali tentang "masalah" aku tu.

Masa tu, ada 2 babies berbaris berenjut dalam buaian depan dorang. Siap gelak berderai lagi. Jangan salah sangka, aku tak jeles tau. Tapi perkara seumpama ini lah yang buat aku lebih berfikir. Ada cousin aku yang sorang ni kata memang tak nak sambung belajar, cukup la sijil yang dia ada. Tak payah masuk universiti sebab ramai kawan dia tak lepas bila dah study. Lagi pon, cikgu maktab yang sambung blajo kat uni tu tak de rumah sewa macam dia (dia refer kat 2 rumah sewa dia kat Kebun Limau tu). Sebenarnya, aku terkejut dengar cakap dia tu.

Anak-anak Mak Nyah aku semuanya pandai-pandai belaka masa di sekolah dulu. Bila peksa, semua lulus cemerlang, dan masuk sekolah berasrama. Satu masa dulu, mak aku jugak slalu banding-bandingkan aku dengan mereka. Memang stress sungguh rasanya kalau you have to prove that you are better than them. Tapi itulah hakikatnya, aku memang degil, suka melawan. Aku tak suka dibanding-bandingkan. Aku dulu tak sehebat mereka, so what??? Jadinya, SPM ku pon seperti nyawa-nyawa ikan. Tapi Allah tu Maha Berkuasa. Yang diingat paling berjaya, semuanya ended up mediocre aje. Bukan aku nak berbangga diri, tapi bila dorang ungkit-ungkit pasal aku ni tak kawin, macam tak berharga, aku rasa panas cuping telinga.

Aku sememangnya tak “bahagia” macam mereka - tak de family sendiri, tak de laki, tak de anak, bf pon tak dak - tak bahagia la namanya kalau macam tu kan. Walaupun kelayakan akademik aku tak sehebat dorang, but hey … I am proud of what I have achieved ok. Sijil-sijil aku tu la “my babies”. Perjalanan akademik aku adalah segala usaha aku sendiri, tiada sedikitpun pengaruh / pertolongan sesiapa. Kegagalan di masa lalu mengajar aku untuk berdiri di atas kaki sendiri dan menghargai peluang yang diberikan. Kebahagiaan mereka kebahagiaan berumahtangga. Kebahagiaan aku akademik dan kerjaya. Tapi pernah ke mereka bertanya? Usah la diharapkan. Juih dimuncung adalah.

Hebat sungguh rupanya orang yang dah berkeluarga dari orang yang masih bujang. Tak kurang hebat jika dapat tambah anak sekerap boleh. Semakin hebat lagi kalau dapat menunjuk-nunjuk kekurangan orang lain dan berbangga dengan pencapaian sendiri. Buat-buatla tak nampak pencapaian orang lain walaupun secara hakikatnya ko tau yang orang itu sebenarnya ada kekuatan tersendiri. Aku sedar sape diri aku, dan disebabkan dari kecik lagi aku dibesarkan untuk berdikari, kalau boleh aku tak nak menyusahkan sesiapa. Tapi aku ni menyusahkan orang ke kalau aku tak kawin lagi, belom beranak-pinak? Mungkin ini takdir aku. Kalau aku boleh sabar, sape dorang nak cakap lebih? Apaaaa … kurang berjaya kah aku jika dibandingkan dengan mereka?

Syawal kali ini semakin terasa syahdu. Bahang hiba kerana kononnya aku tiada punya apa sehebat mereka … Save the pity (if you have any). I can survive (on my own). I do not have to live on others’ principles. Akan ku buktikan – aku juga seorang yang hebat – dan bukannya terletak semata di atas sebuah perkahwinan.

Jalan-jalan Jadi Supir (Part 2)

Today is my second day in Jitra. I went to the town, saja jalan-jalan. Just now, we had a short shopping spree at the supermarket nearby and the pasar malam. I saw ikan pekasam, terkecur air lior dibuatnya. And also fresh rebong, buat gulai lemak tu memang sedap. Tapi memandangkan masih tak sure where we will be tomorrow, jadinya tak dapat lah nak beli. Jitra looks ok to me. Too early to decide. Tapi it’s not the same like Teluk Intan or Segamat for the matter. Teluk Intan is my first home, I grew up there. Segamat is my second home. Che’Mat Sr., my tilam, my bantal pelok, etc. are there. Now Jitra. It’s going to be my new home as my dad will temporarily be based here. We (my mom and I) have been moving a lot lately. My dad’s work requires us to be on the move more often this time around. I don’t mind actually. My mum is very supportive of anything that my dad is doing, and me too. He’s happy to be on the move again. Well, the most important is that, we are here for each other. Being together is everything that you could ask for, at least until before I leave again. I learn many things when I came back this time around. Penat, but I am happy. With the Hari Raya mood in the air, it makes the celebration more meaningful. The experience of fasting in Parit Buntar, Segamat and Jitra is certainly new to us, berbuka puasa along the North-South Hi-way is no longer new to us. We welcome this next phase in our lives. We look forward to many more. I only pray good health for my parents and I. May Allah bless us in everything that we do.

Jalan-jalan Jadi Supir (Part 1)

Lolly has hoped for me to travel a lot in her last email to me (hehehe, sorry for having to reply your email yet Lolly, will do that as soon as I got everything settled here). And how true it was. Thus, less postings here (tu lagik la kan – alasan la dikatakan J)

Segamat – Tenang Station – Labis – Chaah – Bekok – Yong Peng – Ayer Itam – Kluang
Kluang – Ayer Itam (Hi-Way à Ayer Keroh – Seremban – KLIA Exit – Dengkil – Port Klang/S. Alam – Klang – Meru Exit)
Meru – Papar –Kuala Selangor – Tanjung Karang – Sg. Besar – Sekinchan – Sabak Bernam – Hutan Melintang – Seberang Perak – Lekir – Sitiawan – Lumut – Pantai Remis – Changkat Jering – Terong – Taiping – Bruas Exit
Bruas – Taiping – Gunung Semanggol – Bukit Merah – Bandar Baharu – Jawi/Nibong Tebal – Juru – Penang – Sg. Petani – Gurun – Alor Setar – Jitra/Malau

I was in Kluang in the morning and Jitra at night. We started at 10am and arrived at the destination at about 11pm – that is after more than 12hrs driving. I said “we” – yes – we referring to not only my parents and I, but also one truck driver (Encik Halim) and 25 male cows. Iye, betul la tu, 25 ekor lembu jantan - they are about 3 – 4 years old, weigh at about 350 - 370kg each on average and ready to be slaughtered in the near future. We were “escorting” the 4-ton trailer all the way from Kluang to Jitra. Kalau kita duduk dalam kereta pon dah penat, can you imagine standing all the way throughout the journey without any kind of roofing, liquid and food? That’s going to be one hell of a journey, not for something that you should be looking forward to as well.

Being behind the wheels and having the direct look on their face during the journey made me really very sad. Now I know why my dad prefers to have lamb or mutton than beef. It seems so inhumane to consume the meat when you deal with them in your work. The sad looks in their eyes were as if asking for some kind of pity. They were “telling” that they are “leaving”. Because of the heat, some were not able to stand the entire journey. A few, especially, the white one, were resting their heads on the railing at the back of the trailer. Though the haze brings negative outcome to us, but for once I was glad to have the haze yesterday. At least, they did not suffer extreme direct sunlight. We had to stop somewhere after the Ayer Itam exit as my dad saw some of the cows were trampled by the other cows. He was so flabbergasted. The driver was asked not to speed as the trailer that carried the cows behind was not flat. The trailer was a bit slanted at the back, thus making the animals to easily slight towards the end of the trailer. As a result, those standing / sitting at the back will be stepped by the ones that slided behind, despite of layering the surface of the trailer with sand. The sand functions as grips to cows’ hooves, so as to make them more stable should the road becomes hilly. The best layering of sand should be about 6 inches, and please, no mixture of clay type of earth. If it rains, it’ll too slippery for the cows to balance. That’s what my dad told me. And once they were un-loaded from the vehicle, they should rest for at least 2 hours. This means no food or water will be provided, or else they might die. Abrupt or immediate feeding is a big no-no as we do not want the stressed-out animals to be in shock. They must be calm before their feed - pellets of PKC mixed with some grass and some water. It sure is no easy job. In Jitra, they were unloaded in an abattoir area. So teruk kan.

Although I am glad they all landed safely in Jitra, but I was sad when I left the abattoir last night. Kesian, these animals will be slaughtered soon. Probably after keeping them for several days. Tuan Haji said keeping them for a week is quite good as the period will help them to recover from any injury they had from the long journey, as well as to ensure that they regain and pick up on their body index. My dad said the same too. Hambali and son, Azrin, Pak Kasim, Tuan Haji, and several others were there to unload the animals. We had to escort the trailer as it was the last trailer that left Kluang last morning. The animals were the last load that was supposedly to leave at 2am the previous night. However, it broke down near the Kluang Jail, and my dad had to go and look for the trailer. Since there was only one driver, my dad said he’d follow the lorry for the fear that the animals might stand the long journey. Another 3 lorries arrived at noon in Jitra, they didn’t suffer much as the ones we had. These were animals that were loaded near midnite and they were standing for exactly 24hrs! Kesian them. I even called one of them Si Benjol, sebad sebelah mata dia dah benjol macam telor. Mata dia pon bengkak. My dad said, he probably had that masa nak naik lorry malam sebelom tu. Bila tengok muka dia, alahai … kesian betul. Aku ni cepat kesian kat animals yang ada pitiful looks.

After that, we had late supper and reached the PJ2 Hotel at exactly 1.30am. By then, I was exhausted. My dad drove for 6-7hrs till Sekichan before I took over. I did 8-9hrs till we reached Jitra. Mengantuk tu jgn cakaplah – dah la malam gelap macam kopi, jalan pulak dekat hi-way at 80-90/hr. Uishhh … berbijik-bijik jugaklah cekelat yang ku makan. And I don't think I will like that PJ2 very much. Macam tak selesa je ...

Remembrance

We need to remember what used to make us feel happy. I think Jennifer Garner said that in the movie 13 Going on 30 - if I am not mistaken. That statement holds some truth I believe. Going through some old albums last night gave me that feeling. Fond memories of my days in PPP and in Kajai - the great times that I shared with Dash, Ayuz, Fydah, Lili and Balkis, later Mahfuzah and Nini. I was reminded of the company, the friendship and the ups and downs of students' life. I smiled when I looked at first photo taken after I left home (for the first time, you know), It was taken in 217/5/S18 - with me and Dash finishing up an essay on health for Mr. Santa's writing class. I will always remember the essay for I was commended in class by him (which he did very rarely). Boy, that was one of my proudest moments in PPP. You see, I was a very passive student once. I always thought that I was never as good as the others in my course. Everybody looked so intelligent, so poised, so fashionable, so capable as compared myself. Though the essay wasn't something so impressive (to some), but it was enough to encourage me to believe in myself, and to strive for the best. Only later I finally did realise that hey, it's all up to me - to sink or to swim, to make or to break. I need only to believe in myself, and that I can, if I want to. It goes a long way you know, even until today.

So, it's true that we need to remember what used to make us feel happy - and I have to admit that I can be a hopeless romantic too. I read the Wings again for the umpteenth time. Cassandra Maureen O'Malley and Nick "Stick" Galvin found each other again - inspite of all the denials, wants, ambitions, trials and tribulations. Such was the power of love. *sob sob sob* how romantic ... I have missed many of Danielle Steel's latest books. The last one I read was Granny Dan. Her works can inspire you in many ways. They talked about life, family, friendship, hope, and a whole gamut of other things. like in Wings. Try it, you'll know how I feel.

And this particular prose penned at the beginning of the story has never failed in tempting me to join Cassie and Nick in the flight of their dreams. I envy them. To never withdraw from each other's thoughts seems eternal. That's happiness.

To the Ace of my heart,

the pilot of my dreams ...

the joy of my life,

the quiet place I go to

in the dark of night

the bright morning sun

of my soul

at dawn ...

in the bright shining star

in my sky,

to my love,

to my heart,

to my all,

beloved Popeye,

with all my heart and love,

always,

Olive

From the Wings by Danielle Steel

Will be right back ...

Hari ini hari istemewa. Jadi bangun tido pon tak bleh lambat kan. Semoga dipanjangkan umur, dimurahkan rezeki, dan ceria-ceria selalu, Amin. Ye, hari ni umur aku berginjak lagi, dah semakin tua. Hehehe, tapi masih maintain ayu, hahahahaha. LOL! Anyway, I have been travelling up north and down south for so many times that I have even lost count of it. The distance from Penang and Johor pon dah tak terasa. But hey, I get to go back to T. Intan quite often too. And that is certainly on thing that I look forward to. There's no place like home - my real home. Aku ni ada banyak rumah, tapi T. Intan jugak tetap di hati. Ada banyak sentimental values kat sana.

Anyway, I'm going to be busy lagi for the next couple of days. So tak berapa sempat nak tulis banyak untuk kali ini. But I promise to keep my cerita up-dated by next week ok. Jumpa lagi.

Ralit

Angin di luar nyaman sekali, si pakis di luar menlentuk-lentuk di jari bayu. Tenang, tapi tak terasa di kala ini. Sekali lagi aku berdiri menghadap ke hadapan. Tak pernah ku rasa "penat" sebegini. Rajuk semakin kerap. Aku tak mahu, tapi itu lah yang terjadi. Ralit aku berfikir, namun kadang-kadang aku masih menaruh harap. Aku nak pergi ... tapi ke mana ye?

Balik Kampung

Aku balik kampung sepanjang minggu lepas. Melepaskan rindu. Ada rasa tenang setiap kali aku balik T. Intan. Home sweet home orang kata, tak kira di mana kita berada, kampung halaman tetap di hati. Kali ini, aku dengan mak aje yang balik, bapak aku ke China. Seminggu di T. Intan, macam-macam cerita. Dari cerita akak bersalin, sampai la ke cerita Tok Alang nak kawin lagi. Hehehehehe ... Aku jumpa Mak Nyah, Pak Nyah, Alang, Mak Alang, Wa Tine, Shahril, Opah Cu, K. Nora, Abg Jasri, Opah Limah kat Kebun Limau pon ada. Aku gi jumpa Opah and Tok aku gak.

Kadang-kadang bila balik, bila difikirkan semula, dekat area rumah aku tu dah memang tak sama langsung macam masa aku kecik-kecik dulu. Masa dulu, area rumah aku tu sibuk selalu, ramai budak-budak main dekat depan rumah. Bila nak malam baru semua masuk rumah. Kini semuanya dah tak de, budak-budak pon dah takde. Anak-anak K.Yati pon dah beso. Dah kawin pon ada. And not to mention la kan, jiran-jiran aku di sekeliling rumah. Opah Nab sebelah rumah masih macam dulu, Mak Munah pulak kadang-kadang ada, kadang-kadang tak de. Tinggal le Mak Miah and Mak We yang jaga rumah dia. And Cikgu K and Cikgu F dekat rumah ujong tu masih ada. Rasanya semakin tinggi hidung mereka. Especially Cikgu K, I saw him kat rumah Pak Nyah aku, amboi ... senyum tak macam senyum, smirking agaknya. Apa nak buat, sape le kita kan, dorang la yang kaya, dorang la yang bijak pandai, dorang jugak la yang warak lagi alim. Kita ni kecik je dipandang mereka. Cetek sungguh cara mereka menilai orang di sekeliling mereka. Dan cetek juga lah cara mereka meletakkan diri mereka tinggi dari masayarakat setempat. Last last Jawa Sg Kerawai juga. Tak de apa yang hebat pon.

Eh ... aku makan sepuas-puasnya jugak. Ari-ari lauk ikan keli, gulai tempoyak pucuk paku pon ada gak. Tu blom lagi ikan rebus goreng ngan sambal tempoyak, memang cukup membangkitkan selera aku. Tu tak termasuk kedai makan kat tepi Bank Rakyat yang slalu aku ngan mak aku gi. Sedapnya tak terkata, sambal nyor ngan ulam petai, huiyoooo tak terlawan grilled salmon kat Australia tu. Ada banyak lagi aku nak makan, tapi slow-slow sikit. Masih ada masa lagi.

All in all, aku memang senang hati balik kali ni. Though I miss my Opah and my Tok so so much, I know that they are always there with me. Nanti Ita balik lagi. Sok nak gi Penang lagi. Nervous. Nak jumpa ... ;)

What I Saw

I saw what I have been wanting to see for so long today. Sungguh sungguh dekat, yet I walked away - twice. Hmmm ... kenapa ye ...

Aku dan 30/06/2006

Banyak perkara berlaku hari ini, ramai orang yg ku jumpa jugak. Satu per satu, seorang demi seorang.

• Hari ini aku jumpa Ron. Ron ni nampak easy going dan ringkas orangnya. Seperti selalu, perjumpaan dengannya adalah straight to the point, feedback yang amat memberangsangkan. Katanya stop if you need to take break. Pesannya lagi have fun. Semalam aku dah jumpa Chris. Chris pulak adalah seorang yang sungguh berhati-hati, begitu teratur. Setiap perkara mesti untuk yang terbaik. Tapi kedua-duanya sungguh supportive and protective. Katanya keep your spirits up, chin up. Keep smiling too. Hehehehe ... my scroogie.
• Hari ini aku dapat email dari Anwar. Berkali-kali. Aku bosan. Orang yang kadang-kadang sengaja tak berapa nak faham apa yang ko kata. Aku pulak pantang diusik hari ni sebab tido tak puas malam tadi. Si Owan bangun pukul 2am gi jamban and as usual pintu berdentum. Pukul 5am pulak si Leo sibuk mandi and angkut barang nak balik Hong Kong. Dekat pukul 6am baru chaloh, punya la bisingnya, ishhhh ... tensen gua. Baru nak lelap balik, alarm la plak berbunyik, nak kena bangun jumpa Ron. Ok, pasal An, haaahhh kadang-kadang malas aku nak layan, bila orang buat tak tau tu yg dia lagi menjadi-jadi. So dapat la penangannya dari aku - harus la sesuatu yg kurang manis kan. Gasak ko la.
• Hari ini aku bersembang dengan Saifur, Peter dan Helen di workstation. Jarang dapat bertemu serentak macam tu, sbb masing-masing masuk ikut time sendiri. Saifur dgn parenting experience nya, Peter dgn researchnya, and Helen dgn kerjanya. Seronok berkongsi cerita. Aku kemaskan meja aku, dah nak berdebu tak pernah berlap.
• Hari ini aku jumpa dengan Alicia, Danielle dan Barbara jugak. Alicia ni minah OZ yg seksi. Aku rasa dia masih muda lagi, tapi rupa very classic. Nampak mature sket. Lepas bercakap dgn dia, terpaksa la aku taruk barang dalam kotak, hati dah mula menyumpah dah, tapi hawa musim sejuk berjaya memadamkan panas yg semakin menjadi-jadi. Hehehehe ... lepas tu aku gi balik jumpa dorang. Danielle, macam biasa memang forever tersenyum bila nampak aku. Gamaknya aku sorang je student yg selalu meronda-ronda kat area dorang tu. And Barbara - bila tgk dia, hati ko terus sejuk. She has this very motherly look yg betul-betul caring. Ko akan rasa sungguh rileks bila bercakap dengan dia. Walaupun dia Director, ko takkan rasa tak selesa bila bersembang dengan dia. Kalau di Malaysia, mungkin by the time ko dah habis sebut title nama dorang, ko dah lupa ape yang ko nak cakap. Sungguh formal. Kena ikut pangkat.
• Hari ini jugak aku jumpa Wendy dan Tom. Bagi kad. Terima kasih, kataku - untuk segalanya.
• Hari ini jugak aku buat satu perkara bodoh, di depan Brumby's. Aku. Dia yang selalu aku jumpa. Carrot slice. For you. But it's not mine. For you. No, it's not mine. Aku buat mcm tu sebab dia mengingatkan aku pada seseorang. Seseorang yg sangat, sangat aku rindui. Sungguh mirip sekali. Rupanya. Caranya. Macam sama. Tapi tak sama. Aku pergi. Rasa sungguh kecewa.
• Hari ini, aku jugak jumpa K. Yuss, Abg. Ramli dan si comel Yasmin. Amboi, bila dapat nasi panas dan gulai rempah daging K. Yuss, memang tak toleh kiri kanan lagi. Sedap - gulai rempah yang rasa mcm gulai rempah kat Msia. Lain dari yang kita masak sendiri. Abg. Ramli tgh asyik ngan Mawi dan Siti Nurhaliza, K. Yuss ngan conferencenya dan si Min pulak tersengeh tak nampak gigi.
• Hari ni baru bersembang dengan si Aboo. I miss the time that we used to jerit sana sini kat hall sambil membuli si Lolly. Hmmm ...
• Dan hari ini aku baru nampak si Jane semula. Dengan si Garfield. Jane sibuk kemas barang, si Garfield memerhati. Muka Garfield mcm bersegi-segi, LOL. Mesti ada yg tak puas hati dgn si Jane la tu. Kami tak banyak bersembang, aku di telefon. Bila aku tgk Jane, aku teringat balik what we have gone through last sem. Dia dah berubah. Kata Lolly si Ninja tu, Jane bukan Jane yg lama. Benarkah? Mungkin. Itu sebahagian dari kehidupan yg mendewasakan kita.

Hari ini banyak yg berlaku. Terasa penat. Nak berehat. Jumpa lagi.

Dulu dan Kini

Today marked the first phase of my stay in the land down under. Hey, I made it here after all the re-shuffling that changed the direction of my whole life. Today, I asked myself - What have I achieved so far?

If I were to ask this same question a year ago, I would have mumbled a lot, trying to sort the answers. I would feel I need to think harder for a simpler answer. Today, I found my answer - a simple answer - and I smiled.

Many friends might have viewed that being away is like a dream come true. Well, yes ... to a certain extent. Personally, being away is a turning point in my life. Sometimes, I feel as if I have one super-power that can conquer the universe in front of me. Sometimes, I find being at the very bottom can be so frightening, so helpless, so desperate. When you start to doubt yourself, that is also when you must really hold tight to what you believe most - even in your sleep. What good is a dream if you don't see the good and the bad.

A year ago, I decided to live a dream that in the first place was never a dream. I choked at the idea of living a new foreign life. I left home with tears welling inside me. Yet, I made my choice. After a year, I am standing on this foreign soil. I look forward to next stage for I have stood up against all odds. I might have failed some, but I am still standing. I feel good.

That's my answer. I have achieved a phase in life where I feel good about myself. The best I've ever felt. As simple as that. What about you?

Silencing the Élan

For so long I have forgotten the oozing vibes that it has,

For so long I have not felt the tinge of that zest,

A rousing solace to the tempestuous prime,

Guarding the sojourn from end to end,

Let the gust of silence come sprawling,

While the fort of élan is wild at reign.

~Me~

The Donkey

One day, a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.

He invited all his neighbours to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement, he quitened down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up.

As the farmer's neighbours continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!

Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.

Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.
2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happen.
3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.

*Thank you Dr. Chan - for sharing this with me.

The Falling Rain

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain,

telling me just what a fool I've been,

I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain,

and let me be alone again ...

~The Cascades~

Listen ... listen ... to the rhythm of the falling rain, roaring in the rain does the lawn mower make ... hehehehe, it's abt 16-17 degrees now, and it's been raining cats and dogs since early morning sampai la skrg. But the abg-abg mat saleh here are still trimming the lawn, yes, dalam hujan. Awal-awal pagi dah mula tau. Sejuk siut, basah plak tu, tak boleh aku bayangkan kalau aku ni kerja gardener, sah-sah merana pokok-pokok tu semua. Time gini, memang best kalau dapat peluk bantal busuk, but I am wide awake ok, dah mandi dah pon. Am having a blast of fun with Mr. Creswell's book ni ha, yeahhh riteeee, poooraahhhh!

Many things happened for the past few weeks, but the keywords are these - work, flu, cold, Ron, Chris, books, flu, cold, work, dinner, Lolly, Aboo, Christophe, Beethoven, work, stress, flu, Insp. Rex, Big Bro, Hugh Jackman, work. There's a longer list, but I thought a summarised one would do just fine. Right now, teramat la busy going through my work. Huhuhuhu, datelines to meet and things to sort out before the end of the semester. Ada till end of June, tapi mcm byk je yg nak kena settle, so within that time frame, I'll be as busy as bee ;) So I'll see ya when I see ya ....

Sleepless in Perth

I didn't even notice that I have very obvious dark circles under my eyes until Lolly pointed it out yesterday. Not that I don't see myself in the mirror everyday, but I am not the person who likes to scrutinise every single inch of my face. It's true that I go to bed quite early these days, however not into good slumber. It's either I'll wake up in the wee hours with a mind that's ready to participate in a marathon, or I'll be having difficulties to just doze off. And becoming a light sleeper these days doesn't help at all - even the footsteps of my flatmates can wake me up. It irks me when my nights are quite sleepless as my mood swing the next day can be intolerable. In short, I can be (more) annoying ok. Duhhh ... You know what, there's another thing that has been bothering me for quite some time now.

• Why can't other people not do things that I do?
• Why can't they pave their own trail?
• Why can't they, for once, do things that are original?
• Why can't they just go elsewhere, and not make me their yardstick?

I'm tired of running MY (yes, MY) mile with some people tagging along. I really do. I charted my "new territory", faraway from those I do not want to be associated with, the one that you have NEVER thought about at all, and now out of the blue, you are calling "my territory" as your destiny too? Alooooooo, chart your own course for once la! Welcome abode??? NO - N, O, - NO ... the whole shebang sucks ok mate. The skipper is going sky-diving. *sigh* must be the sleepless night (again).

Lift (by Shannon Noll)

I know you're hurting
Feels like you're learning
'Bout life the hard way
And it ain't working
Seems like forever
That you've been falling
It's time to move on
Your life is calling, yeah

* This was never meant to be the end
Close the book and start again

** Cos i know how hard it can get
But you've gotta lift
you've gotta lift
And sometimes that's how it is
But i know you're stronger
Stronger than this
You've gotta lift
You've gotta lift

When you can feel your
Whole body's aching
What's left of your heart
It won't stop breaking
You've got to let go
you took a hit
Time to pick up now
move on from this

[Repeat * , **]

You've got to lift yourself up above all the hurt
Don't give in
Wipe your eyes and remember you're better than this
let them know that they took their best shot and they missed
Come on and lift

[Repeat **]

Pick up now...
Pick up now...

No One's Home!

Ari nih cuti kat Msia, tapi tak de cuti kat sini. Hmmm, dalam my last post aku ada cite pasal raksaksa geram kan. Kepada sape-sape yang terasa, *nasib la*. I am not sure if there are other people out there who would understand what this post rambles about. I just want to share how I feel. The only person that I could think about who would probably relate to this post is K. Zill agaknya. This thingamabob abt the Raksaksa thingy has been going on quite some time starting earlier this year. Most of the times, we are just so much into our own realm of the shoulds and the should-nots, withdrawing any consequences of what others around you might feel. Fine, I am guilty of that. I always know that I am such a loud person. But that doesn't mean I do not have any compassion at all. I thought I'd loosen up a bit and start to listen more. Hey, I did try ok, but am I at fault too when I find things are taken for granted, thus becoming more annoying? Did I ever encourage it to form part of a routine? Maybe. But don't we need to know when to linger around or when to back off a bit? Not all do, I suppose. That reminds me of K. Nora's post on sindir menyindir. Kalau dah cakap tak nak dengo, dah tunjuk tak nak nengok, ateeeee mcm mana ke gayanya?? What about the respect to others of their privacy?

Yes, I am a very private person, esp. to those who merely know me. There are things that I have kept so deep in me that I will not share with any souls, ever. Yes, I am a very sensitive person too, for I can sense and read most of the intended & unintended meaning(s) in most situations. I can also be the opposite if I find a person is beyond the acceptable limti. Come on, you need to be aware of the given situation too. Contohnya la, it doesn't mean if you like blue, the others would be too. It doesn't if you are in love with Tom Cruise, the others would love him to bits too. It doesn't mean if you are bored, the others would feel the same. It doesn't mean if you like gulai lemak labu so much, I would too. This is just a simple and logical reasoning. Take a look around you - Are they the same like you? OR are they different than you?

Well, the point that I'm trying to establish here is that, I can be selfish in putting a value to my "sanctuary". Really, it's nothing outlandish, nothing bizarre at all. By that, I meant my very own SPACE. The space, my friend, is my most treasured retreat here. My sanctuary. I might be living like a hermit, but that gives me the peacefulness and the strength that I am looking for. I admit that no man is an island, there are times when I need the company of others too. Yet my recluse also has provided me with some kind of positive self-refuge --> to nurture myself, to hold me up. Call it whatever you want, but it is my hide-out, be it cool or bleak. I choose that, SOME SPACE just to collect my sanity and to reflect the hustle and bustle at the end of each day. No frills added. Just me. So, please do not expect me (*or anyone else for that matter) to issue you the "invite" to my (*or his/her/their) sanctuary(ies). Some things are better left unsaid for what you will see/hear might not spell paradise.

Now, is it you who' s "knocking" on the door of my sanctuary? Read this: NO ONE'S HOME. Hahahahahahahaha ... Selamat Hari Buruh dari Perth :)

Raksaksa Geram

Ari ni hari mendung sedunia, hujan dari subuh sampai la ni. Nasib baik gak ari ni public holiday kat sini - Anzac Day. So, ada la excuse nak bangun lambat dan tak gi campus, muahahahaha. Tapi keje tetap jalan gak memandangkan sok nak kena gi mengadap. Gabrak gak, sbb keje yg siap ... alahai ada mcm ciput je. Tak pe, tak pe ... kena rileks sket, baru tak gabrak teruk kan. Semalam aku gi potong rambut, dah jadik pendek gila siut. Satu mamat OZ ni yg kerat rambut aku, Ash nama dia. Memang sungguh dia potong pendek, aku rasa ada la abt satu inci lebih je rambut aku yg tinggal. Hehehehe, tu gara-gara nak tahan sampai habis sem. ni. I kind of like it though it's short. Ringan sket rasanya kepala aku setelah lama rasa serabai je. Dalam dua tiga ari ni, raksaksa ngan bola api muncul balik, hahahahaha. Dgn selambaknya aku tunjuk jalan kuar sama ulat yg slalu mai "kawasan" aku. Terang2 aku reject, tak kira la apa ko nak cakap. Come on la beb, aku pon nak gak bersendirian di kawasanku, bersama barang2ku. Nama lagi KU, bukannya MU. Cheh. Ko ada kawasan ko, gi la blah sana, ni ada ati tempat aku gak ko nak lanyak, byk cantik! Soweeee, aku pon bleh mengganas gak, skali dua aku bleh tahan lagi, kalau dah acapkali, chewahhhh, sape bleh tahan. Bukannya ko tak de, saje je suka merayap kat tempat org. Ulat tu ala2 bengkek je sbb aku kata tak mo layan, paham2 la kawan. Aku rasa penat la layan org yg merengek2 cam tu. Geram pon ada, bleh blah la ... Okeh, dah abih luahkan perasaan. Raksaksa nak gi mandi la plak ;) hahahahahaha.

Gambar ni tak de kena-mengena ngan cite Raksaksa Geram, kucen tu kiut, dan aku suka ayat dia, power. LOL, chiao

3 Cerita

• Location: My room in my Residence
• Time: Abt 1.33pm
• Weather: Mendung, but no rain
• State of Mind: Sane
• Physical Check: Still overweight, unruly disheveled hair, haven't taken my shower yet :)
• Latest activities today as to this hour: Had lunch (sambal tumih sotong and gulai lemak kobih cina, sedap ooo), trimmed my nails, listening to Sheila Majid's CD whilst watching Home Improvement
• Bilangan cerita hari ini: A few
• Cerita 1: Read my friend's email again - sometimes you can't help it but to ponder on the value of friendship when you felt you have been betrayed. Betrayal of trust and respect just due to some selfish acts of the other party. Regardless of how minute it can be, it will surely take toll on us. When he or she slackens in retaining the trust that you have had on her/him, it is never a good sign. I have been betrayed many times more than I have betrayed others. To be betrayed is such a deep cut, but to betray is always intentionally, with or without clear conscience. I dread being betrayed, and I try my very best not to betray. If only we think of our friends before putting our personal interests and gains on the first, topmost priority. If only we are not selfish ...
• Cerita 2: Have you ever come across one feeling of dissatisfaction that you cannot let it out, just to take care of someone else's feelings? Contohnya la, ko tgh syok tgk cerita Shah Rukh Khan, tetiba kawan ko sampai, bukannya nak tgk cite tu skali tapi just nak gebang-gebang. Bijik mata ko kat tempat lain, tinge ko ntah ke mana. Lagi satu situasi, ko tak suka berkongsi barang dgn org lain sbb ko tak dapat privacy utk pilih apa yang ko nak. Bila ko sibuk2 nak cari alternatif lain, si dia sesibuk nak copy apa ko buat. Ko pon gi le carik benda tu. Ok, mesti la ko ingat problem tu dah settle, sbb tak yah berebut2 lagi kan. Tapi, tup tup si dia suka singgah melawat, bukan sekali dua, tapi kerap kali, tak kira masa lak tu. Ko plak tak pernah merendek cam tu sampai la ko rasa susah nak terima. Lain yg ko plan, lain yg jadi ... apa nak buat ... nasib badan
• Cerita 3: Apa ko rasa kalo tgh ko syok-syok nak bergebang sana sini, si anu nak gi "kerench" selang setengah jam? dah tu tempat nya alahai ... berpusing kepala lutut, potong steam aku je. Barang yg tak penting, beriya2 pulun abis, barang tu benor2 penting, byk dolak dalih. ... hehehehe, ok la, aku nak tgk TV - ada cerita Cinderella la plak. Tajuknya Ever After aku rasa, cite fave aku daa ... Till then, tata

I am Green

You're green, the color of growth and vigor. Good-hearted and giving, you have a knack for finding and bringing out the best in people. Green is the most down-to-earth color in the spectrum — reliable and trustworthy. People know they can count on you to be around in times of need, since your concern for people is genuine and sincere. You take pride in being a good friend. For you, success is measured in terms of personal achievement and growth, not by status or position. Rare as emeralds, greens are wonderful, natural people. It truly is your color!

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That's the result that I've cut and pasted from the Tickle test that Shahrin sent me yesterday. Hehehehe, sounds like too good to be true kan (*perasan je tu*), but one thing for sure is that I love the color green so much, what a coincidence. Nothing much to report this time around:

• Easter started with Good Friday last week, and most places were closed for a long weekend which lasted yesterday.
• The 2-week-semester break started with Good Friday, and the uni is really quiet now.
• Went to Freo with Ging and Lolly last Saturday. It was a nice outing - lunch at Cicerello's, street performances in the middle of Freo, coffee at Dome, wonderful autumn breeze - just perfect.
• Missed the Easter Sunday Breaky - overslept lorr hehehehe
• Watched Devdas (for the Xth time) last weekend - I miss Malaysian dramas.
• Still struggling to keep up with my readings - duhhh
• Am badly in need of a haircut :P

Till then, cheers.

Maximus

Dag dug dag dug debaran di hati when I heard his voice on the phone. He was the only one who always made me feel like that, and now I know he still has that effect on me. Ada rasa teragak-agak kedengaran, he sounds so dekat, yet it was so him. Mungkin dah lama aku tak dengar suara dia agaknya. Maximus - itu lah satu nama yang dulu amat bermakna padaku, yang pertama mencuri hati ku. Dgn hanya satu utusan email, dan satu pesanan ringkas, dia pantas menyapa ku lagi. Mendengar suaranya mengimbau kembali kenangan yang bertahun-tahun dahulu. We talked about life, about me ... and about him. Tiada yang peribadi, sekadar hanya yang perlu. Sehingga ada ruang kosong, masing-masing loss in speech. Memang dia begitu orangnya, pendiam, tiada banyak yang mahu diperkatakan. Katanya, dia akan berkunjung ke sini (but not as soon). Aku terdiam. I felt so nervous. Apa nih ... he was just from my past. Satu nama yang muncul lagi setelah sekian lama aku terlupa.

Rindukah aku padanya?

Ya ... I miss the times we spent together.

Mungkin kah 'sesuatu' itu masih ada lagi di antara kami? Ermmm ... aku tak tau.

Mahukah aku bertemu dengan nya semula?

Entah ... aku takut untuk kecewa lagi.

Shalalalalala ...

I met Ron just now. Had a talk with him. Ingatkan dah kantoi, but it turned out to be ok. Al-maklumlah, si slowcoach ni memang ala2 lembaps sket in doing her work. And gotten Chris's email too. So happy. They just made my day. Lalalalalalalalala ... sungguh girang hati ku ini. I deserve a treat kan kan kan ;)

Di Hujung Hari

Dia mengganggu damai ku lagi,

tiada yang mungkin, jauh sekali pasti.

Hadirnya dia hingga ke mari,

membolos impian bohongan hati.

Aku masih di sini,

harapan sepi di hujung hari ...

Usah dipujuk

Bagi pon susah, tak bagi pon susah.

Susahnya bila berkawan dgn orang yg bernama lelaki.

Rajuknya kalah bebudak, walaupun dah tua kerepot.

*Buhsan tul*

Orang Lain Punya KJ Baru

*Bunga Api utk K. Sephia*

I got the news from K. Zill last week. Congratulations K. Sephia! You are indeed the best person for the job. So she's the new KJ now for JBK. Well, to tell you the truth, anyone from MY circle of friends there will be able to do the job brilliantly given what may - mcm K. Zill ke, mcm K. Dev ke, mcm K. Ah Sui ke ... hehehehe, I never have doubts in their capabilities. Ni semua superwomen - so bukan calang-calang orang punya. You need the brain and experience to do the job, the patience and psychology to manage people, the effort and openess to lead in the right direction, and the foresight and passion to extend not only your horizon, but also those around you. In short, semua2 pon kena ada sikit2, hehehehe. Tapi respect pon penting as you need to work with others kan. But K. Sephia mmg the best candidate due to her vast experience and background, plus her pesonality too. Tak macam the cookie monster or the Chevrolet ladee. K. Haz pon still ok, but those two - go fly kite la.

Tapi kan, dalam aku happy sorang2 kat sini, aku terfikir gak. Aku mmg happy sbb kakak ku naik pangkat, malangnya aku ni mcm status tumpang happiness dorang je. Ye lah ... tu bukan KJ baru ku ... tu KJ dorang. Aku mana de KJ skrg ni ... uhuk uhuk uhuk. Tak malu, KJ org, dia lak yg lebih2 ... :( huwaaaaaaaaa

Janet's Bday

I haven't gone online for the past 2 days, hehehehehe ala-ala macam miracle gitu. I would have been complaining if I didn't get my usual dose of the Net before, but for the past 2 days I was just tired. Badan tak letih, otak ku macam letih memanjang. Plus I need to continue writing. Tu yang letih tu. Ok, I have been having writer's bloc, and yes ... I am barely making progress. That's not good kan ...

Anyway, I just want to share my cerita for today's post. Last Friday (10th March) was Jane's 24th birthday. Happy Bday Jane! May You Always be Happy. Well, she should as she has everthing that she needs now ;) you know what I mean gal. So, Lolly, Aboo and I went to the city to get her presents and a cake. I got her miniatures of a dragonfly and butterflies for her new car and Lolly bought her a kinky G-string. Hahahahaha, she was soooo embarassed when she took it out that nite. And Aboo bought her Audrey - a piggy which is pink in color. So, there were just the 3 of us to celebrate her birthday in the flat. Though it was just a simple and quiet get-together, we certainly had a lot of fun. We had fried chicken, fries and the cake from Miss Maud was so delicious. And they (I am a good gal hehehehe) also had the fun of their life and Aboo started "playing" with the chocolate coating of the cake. Hahahahahahaha ... a lot of laughing and screaming too. Not only chocolate, but also tomato ketchup ... hahahahaha ... that would be on top of Aboo's bald head! What a nite.

Hmmm, skrg ada sale kat city - Autumn&Winter2006. I need to go there to get myself some mangkuks and a new senduk. Hehehehehe, saja nak carik alasan gi jejalan. Maybe this weekend.

Macam-macam

I went to Ballantyne yesterday, dekat ngan Kewdale temankan si Janet. The place pretty much reminded me of one part of Bangi, dekat dgn Warta tu, where there is a stretch of kilangs. Macam tu la gayanya, and the car that she was looking at memang lah sangat tak menarik - a Ford Festiva. I don't know whether it is the way here or not, but most of the car dealers that I have been to memang tak cuci sgt kereta-kereta yang dorang nak jual tu. Dgn calarnya, dgn koyak sana sini, dgn tayarnya yg botak, macam-macam lagi la. Ala-ala tak presentable gitu. After Kewdale, we left for Albany Highway - Vic Park to be precise. That's where si Janet bought the car - finally - after much negotiating under the sun, mind you! It's a three-door Hyundai Xcel, kaler putih, model 1998. And the car cost her AUD4500. Hari ni dia gi amik keta tu. And malam tadi, si Aboo & si Jane main siram air kat kitchen, and the whole kitchen was wet. Merata-rata tempat kena air termasuk la pintu & the ceiling. Pas tu si Aboo terhegeh-hegeh carik mop. Memang mcm budak2 dua org tu, tapi lucu tul. Dgn aku-aku skali kena :P:P. So itu la dia hari ini dalam sejarah, hehehehehe.

Hah, lagi satu - latest update pasal ikan baru. I saw him again baru-baru ni. Lagi selalu jumpa, lagi lah bertambah suka. Bak kata orang Melaka, hawau tul. Bila lagi suka, amboi bukan main lagi angan2 ngan ikan baru. Hahahahahaha ... as usual, he can easily sweet talk anyone la. Memang funny orangnya, needless to say things that he did. *sigh* bila lagi nak jumpa nih? :P Huahahahahaha

Psssttt ... ada sorang student baru kat workstation aku ni, dari KL. Dia kata dia budak design, baru sampai minggu lepas. Very trendy orangnya, rambut perang kerinting maggi gitu. To early to say much, let's just see. Chiao.

My Life

*An Adaptation*

One day he asked me

what I love more ...

Him or My Life,

and when I said My Life

he walked away from me

without knowing ...

that He is My Life

Ikan Baru

Hati ku dicuri lagi ... hehehehe, tapi aku pasti kali ni had suka-suka aje la. Tak sangka at this age aku masih macam budak-budak. Dah agak lama aku perhatikan dia dari jauh, akhirnya bersua muka juga - orangnya segak dan suka berjenaka, suaranya dalam, dan namanya sedap jugak. Dan yang paling aku suka ialah perhatiannya pada benda-benda yang mmg aku tak sangka. Tapi aku rasa dia tu macam agak pro berfoya-foya jugak, a charmer I should say. Hehehehe, utk suka-suka dan buat aku terperasan sket apa salahnya kan ... , saja utk menghiburkan hati. Kepada si dia ... nah ... sekuntum mawar merah dariku untukmu, sweet dreams ... muahhssss

Lost & Found

This was my horoscope for yesterday (from Yahoo!) -

Overview:

Easy come, easy go. If this is meant to be yours, it'll find its way back to you. In the meantime, why not unclench that jaw and loosen those fists? It's time to appreciate what you do have right now.

Yeah, right! I lost my spoon last night. And I found it in Teapot's cabinet. Cuba bayangkan, sudu pun nak kebas org punya, apa punya orang ni entahlah, aku pun tak tau. So, out of rage, I did something even worst (tu tindak balas reflex tu). Apa dia aku dah buat? Hahahahahahaha, shhhhhhhh, *rahsia* mana bleh cakap ;) , cukup la kalau aku cakap sesuatu yg keji hahahahahahahaha.

Tak pe, aku bleh sabar lagi. Hari ni hari ko. Nanti laaaa ...

Sunshine in Mayfair

Long long time ago, there was a gal who managed to buy Mayfair and Parklane. And she became so rich, only later to be called the champion - and twice too, mind you! Hehehehehe, nah, that can happen if I am super filthy rich, dream on mate. On the Monopoly board game -- yeah, that I did. And me being me, was bragging about my 2 winnings and thus dubbed the others into titles like, Lolly - the most bankcrupt, Dain - the 2nd most bankcrupt and Jane - the loser. So bad of me huh -- berlagak aje :P. Anyway, after winning the game twice in 2 consecutive nights, Dain made his pile 2 nights ago. And did you know how they celebrate the occasion? With much delight and bullying too. Hahahahahaha, they were teasing me like mad and Dain even recorded that. So I became "the gal who couldn't accept lost". That's right - I LOST. LOL, but I had a lot of good time with Evil No. 1@ The Initiator (ie. to my losing), Evil No. 2@ The Culprit and King Evil --> the most evil of all :P:P:P:P:P and me??? Of course, sure enough they were just too happy to label me THE LOSER, huhuhuhuhu. But I really had a lot of fun.

And hey, we had our first flat dinner too. Everybody was present but the dinner was a quiet one. Dain, Lolly and myself in the non-Cantonese speaking group, while Owan, Leo and Janet belong to the Cantonese speaking group. Leo was exceptionally quiet, concentrating on the food maybe. Dain was busy with his camera and so was Leo -- initially. Lolly and Owan were - as usual - outdoing each other at the IQ questions that Jane posed. And I had to say that Owan really really need to watch his language. Ironically, you should try listening to how he speaks to Jane, so soft, so sweet, so nice, so polite, so careful. Hahahahahahaha, maybe he likes Jane, jangan marah ye Jane. And me, was just enjoying the meal, and trying to keep Lolly from losing much temper (from under the table). Jane and I prepared the spaghetti and the meehoon. Dain prepared a dish from Mauritius - Rougaille or Sauce Creole - with meat and a lot of tomatoes. It was really nice, even to be taken with pasta or rice. And Super Lolly prepared her famous potato salad - that was also yummy. And we also had some rockmelons. That was also the night that I became the Loser :P:P, must be the food LOL

Last week was also a week of socialising and formal outings. The PM of Malaysia was in town and my friends and I were among the invited students to attend both ceremonies. I went with Woon, K. Yuss and Aisyah. 2 pairs of baju kurung were used for both events, and my mom said I was on TV. Hahahahahaha, very clearly seen on the news that even Uncle Rada and Uncle Bala called my dad to let him know. Several photo shoots were also taken during the session in Hyatt Regency and at the Prime Ministerial Library. Budak2 UWA, aisey -- sibuk je bergambar sekali, hehehehe. Tak pe la kan, sekali sekala. I felt so proud to have sung Negaraku in an OZ lecture theatre. Lain rasanya, tak tau nak describe macamana. I suppose, when you are far away from your country, you tend to appreaciate it more. I got to shake hand with the CM of Melaka too, and even congratulated him on the development in Melaka. Man, was he very happy to hear that ;) Jenuh melaram dgn baju kurung in the city, lepas tu, K. Yuss and I gi jejalan in the campus as they were having Orientation Week punya exhibition for the new students. Ada byk booth jugak of all the clubs and societies available on campus. I missed 2 other get-together events organised by the uni sbb letih, hehehehe. Apa lagi ye ... haaaaa, the best one was when Chris called to tell me the good news. The committee had reviewed my work and had agreed for me to proceed with no changes to be done. He congratulated me and was pleased with that too. I was relieved and trust me, it was the news that I have been waiting for the past couple of weeks. Alhamdullillah, semoga Tuhan permudahkan perjalanan ku di sini. Amin.