Not So Long Ago ...

A trip to the nursery tepi jalan late this afternoon reminded me of a few "gallavantings" that K. Zill and I had quite some time ago when I was in Melaka. Masa tu masing-masing tengah gila-gila nak tanam bunga. Bukannya terer tanam bunga, tapi entah macam mana terjadi hobi sementara lak. I smiled when I saw the kiambang yang kecik-kecik tu. Teringat that the two of us bought some and lastly they grew so fast and so many that we had to throw away some. Lepas tu, ada jugak trips to the nursery just to buy pasu bunga. Lol, we had a lot of fun, walaupun hanya untuk beli pasu bunga and baja. I still keep some pots that I managed to "rescue" when I left Melaka. My dad gave away many of them to my neighbours since there wasn't a lot of space on the lorry when we were shifting the things back to Segamat.

An unsent email also reminded me of this particular person not so long ago. Baru beberapa tahun, tapi rasanya macam dah lama. Reading it made me see how foolish I once was. Though not that young, the email was saved for some unforgotten reasons. It was written with a purpose to apologise. At the same time, it also seeked to clarify and ... to confess. But I didn't send it till the end. I did it my way. Yes, I was crushed at first. But I was glad. At least, I was brave enough to face it. That makes me the winner - in my own way. As Na La told Ren Zai (in the Fireworks), a relationship between a man and a woman is all or nothing. She wants all, if ever she finds "him". I want it too. I want it all. Single or not, I just want it all. If you know what I mean ... *wink*

You've Got a Friend

I deleted the post about EG. Reading it again made me realised that it wasn't how I wanted it to be described. He was a wonderful friend who made me felt special in many simple ways. This one is my fave, dedicated for all the friends who have made me feel special in their own ways. You know who you are ...

When you're down and troubled

and you need some lovin' care

and nothin', nothin' is going right.

Close your eyes and think of me

and soon I will be there

to brighten up even your darkest night.

You just call out my name,

and you know wherever I am

I'll come running to see you again.

Winter, spring, summer, or fall,

all you have to do is call

and I'll be there...

You've got a friend.

If the sky above you

grows dark and full of clouds,

and that old north wind begins to blow.

Keep your head together and call my name out loud

Soon you'll hear me knocking at your door.

You just call out my name

and you know wherever I am

I'll come running, running, yeah,

to see you again.

Winter, spring, summer or fall

all you have to do is call

and I'll be there, yes I will.

An excerpt of You've Got a Friend (Performed by Carole King)
http://solosong.net/friend.html

The End Lagi

http://datorrents.com/forums/showthread.php?p=43209

Yang ini pon dah abih gak ...

The End

http://www.kbs.co.kr/drama/qgirl/media/photo/index.html

Dah abih dah ...

Fireworks

The main character of this drama is Shin Nah-rah, a girl approaching thirty who doesn’t have a house, money, a boyfriend, a job, or anyone to support her. All she has are her brains. After living unemployed for a while and struggling to make a living she thinks about getting married because then she can at least work as a housewife. After she gets dumped by her boyfriend, who she was planning on getting married to and living together with, she goes out to find the woman who stole his heart; but while at this woman’s cosmetic company an ad for a sales clerk catches her eye. Having nothing to lose she fakes being her 20 year old little sister, a high school graduate, and starts working as a sales clerk at the company. At work she meets an immature and spoiled guy likes the woman who stole her boyfriend’s heart. The two always snarl at each other and get into disputes but this guy later turns out to be an employer who came into the company to work only because his mother is the vice president of the company; in other words he is the son of a really rich family! A love story starts to grow between the employer who knows nothing except being tough and an employee who knows a lot more than her boss throughout all their disputes and quarrels.

http://www.hancinema.net/korean_drama_Fireworks_(2006).php

xoxoxo

Huhhh ... dia ingat cute la apa yang dia buat tu, tapi sebenarnya macam ngoossss aje! Kensel, putus selera aku. Ptui ptui ptui!

Kongsi-Kongsi

Some things are just best left unspoken, like my previous entry on the late call I had. Time heals. I pray for it. Kadang-kadang, to listen to others can take a toll on yourself too. Aku rasa dah penat. And some think I am trying to avoid them. Dan akhirnya terasa dengan tindakan aku. But can't I be given a choice to not listen to all that they want say? Sekali-sekala a repeat, one or two, would be fine. Tapi not to make it a habit. I have been there, I have done that. So what's new? And I have never told that to any breathing souls. I keep it all to myself. Tapi ada ke orang yang nak spend their time thinking about my feelings? Macam tak de agaknya. I refuse to be seen as someone who reveals too much, especially my unhappiness and my problems. Yes, I have my own problems too. Tapi ada ke orang tau? Tak ada. Itu lah aku, semuanya simpan sendiri. Degil yang tak bertempat kan? Ego sungguh. Realistically, bukan tak mahu berkongsi, tapi dengan siapa? Suatu masa dulu, aku punya teman untuk berkongsi. Indah seketika, tapi sayangnya semua hilang dengan tiba-tiba. Hancurnya hatiku tiada siapa yang tahu. Kemudian, hadir pula peluang kedua. Tapi akhirnya, dia pergi bersama di angin lalu. Aku lepaskan semuanya. Aku pun berhenti mengharap. Kataku lagi, simpanlah segalanya di dalam dirimu. Apa perlunya berkongsi. Kini, bila ada yang menyapa mahu berkongsi, aku panik, tidak berani lagi. Bukan kerana aku tak mahu. Puas aku fikirkan. Semacamnya, aku sudah tidak tahu berkongsi lagi. Aku katakan aku tidak layak untuk kemungkinan satu perkongsian itu. Aku tahu, aku bukan menyakiti hanya hati sendiri.