2012 was one of the saddest years of my life. 

And I pray to Allah the Almighty to give me the strength to move on.

Random Thoughts

It has been some time since I added in my last post. Many things happened during that duration. I co-organised an international conference in June - it was a success albeit all the obstacles that we had to go through. And my mom became sick at that time and was hospitalised for 2 weeks. That was a difficult time for the three of us. She's been diagnosed with an illness and is trying her level best to get back on track like before. I pray to God that she'll recover, InsyaAllah. The 2-week raya break that we had in Teluk Intan was a good one. Met with all the family members & relatives - definitely a well-deserved break. When I came back from kampung, it was time for the new semester. Had been a few hectic weeks for all of us. In the midst of all that, some friends and I went for a rendezvous somewhere on the island. I'm older now, therefore I should be wiser. But something happened during the outing that night. We met a group of 'people' that we know and surprise, surprise, one of them was hitting on me. As much as I felt uncomfortable about it, I didn't do much to avoid his flings. I reminded him several times of his status but I just did not want to humiliate him in front of the group - they come from this so-called elite group of officers and there is this 'agreed unstated' rules (which apply to both males and females) when they go out socialising. This is not to say that I am a sociable person because I don't go partying around. But that night, I was very much in control of myself. Needless to say, after many attempts, the fellow stayed away from me till the end. I suppose, he got the signals and probably, there is still some respect for the relationship that I've shared with him before (i.e. on a formal basis, of course). One of my friends said something like this ... "Probably that's the kind of 'openmindedness' that these officers are looking for." Well, I left it as it is. He and I will never be.

Full stop.

Have an open mind?

you should remember not to judge others whatever their problems might be. Have an open mind and be heartwarming towards your peers. Your time will be much appreciated by those who are going through difficulties.

tu kata horoscope aku kat yahoo. dia kata aku kena berfikiran terbuka dengan kawan-kawan. tapi kadang-kadang bila ada kawan terlepas cakap, sape yang tak terasa. Faham la kita bahawa yang cemerlang tu hanyalah untuk mereka yang sama umur dan kawin itu hanyalah untuk mereka yang "cantik-cantik"je. Faham la juga bahawa kita yang masih muda ni di 'bawah' tahap cemerlang dan kita yang belom kawin ini di 'bawah' kumpulan orang yang tak cantik, ish ish ish ... cetek sungguh! aku rasa horoskop tu silap.

akak jeles ke?

Bila Kita Semakin Lupa ...

Bila kita semakin lupa ...

Syawal kali ini ...

Syawal yang membahagiakan ...

Ramadhan Al Mubarak

Sungguh cepat masa berlalu ...

Ramadhan tahun ini adalah Ramadhan kedua ku di Pulau Mutiara.

Teringat ketika berpuasa masa di Perth & Jitra.

What a journey it has been ...

Kenduri Durian

I had to attend a taklimat this morning at the main hall. Had a karipap and some tea during break before the session continued in the afternoon. I went out with ZiZi, NuNu & SallY for lunch at the Noodle Station in E-Gate. Pas tu, hujan punya la lebat. Hari ni lunch makan mee saja sebab ada sesi makan durian pas tu.

We had the 'kenduri' durian lepas hujan dah sidang sket. Mula2 SuzSuz kata nak pi pekena durian Balik Pulau, tapi memandangkan some of us need to be back kat pejabat earlier, tu yg dok singgah kat Sg. Dua je (depan Lip Sin). Duk la the 6 of us kat tepi jalan tu gara2 durian punya pasal. The fruits were lovely -- M5 kata tokeh tu. Hahahahaha, makan tak ingat dunia. Sedap wooooooo ... SuzSuz belanja... ngeh ngeh ngeh ... sempat gak dia gi senamrobik before mengadap durian2 tu. Lain kali kena gi lagi.

I had a jolly time this afternoon. Durian punya pasal, semuanya jadik!

Well, may the 13th of July bring out the best in me :)

Signing off ...

Iye ke?

When we think of someone,

it's often because they're thinking of us, too.

A: Iye ke?

B: Agaknya le ...

10.15am, July 5th

I just want to close my eyes and pretend that it did not happen this morning ...

Conference 1 - 2 June 2010

I've been very busy for the past couple of months. Went back to Perth earlier this year, coordinated the PSU programme and worked in a committee for an international conference. Yes, I was very exhausted, but hey ... I had a great time as well ... Kudos to all those people that I've worked with - what a great team!

These lovely photos were among the dozens taken by a dear colleague ... thanks ZiZi

If Only You'd Realise ...

... it's not always the same

no it's never the same

if you don't feel it to.

if you meet me half way.

It could be the same for you.

If you just realised what I just realised

then we'd be perfect for each other

then we'd never find another

Just realised what I just realised

we'd never have to wonder

Just realised what I just realised ...

Excerpt from Colbie Caillat's "Realize"

The Significant Yesterday

Yesterday,

... I had my last class for the semester. Gonna miss all those cheeky kids.

... I met Sam. Hmmmm ...

Of Copy-Cats & Food Poisoning

I had food poisoning last week and I spent the weekend in bed. It was so bad that I thought I might have to sleep in the toilet! That is minus the vomitings and bloating ok. Other than that, I was just as good as goreng pisang semalam (read: b-a-s-i) :P

After taking loads of medicines, I am feeling much better now. What was the cause to my food poisoning? It was a bowl of meehoon beef soup. I had it at the Juru R&R, the one along the hi-way to KL (yes, the immediate R&R just after you leave Penang). I was so hungry that evening, I even requested for extra beef! It cost RM11.00 for 2 mangkuks of meehoon soup. Very pricey for a gerai punya food kan. And to get food poisoning after that ... is just not good ehh ...

So, the next time you stop at the Juru R&R, be selective of the food that you want to buy. After that incident, I'd strongly encourage you to take your break at the next R&R stop. That'd be at Gunung Semanggol I think. As for me, I shall refrain myself from taking meehoon soup for a long, long, long time. Phobia dibuatnya.

Anyway, I turned off my mobile when I was sick that weekend. And boy was I so glad I did that. You know, there are some people who just couldn't leave you alone, who just need to call you every day. Geeeezzzz ... get a life! I don't mind if it's really important/urgent, but other than that pls. respect my private time. My life does not revolve around you. I cannot and will not entertain you at any time you wish. My sincere advice is: grow up my friend and please be your own self. Imitating others (character-wise, personality, style or preferences) is just so ... not cool. Feel good meh if you become a copy-cat? ish ish ish ...

Kaput

Rome is not built in one day ... yeah rite. I hope, really hope, that "Rome" of yours will not be finished at all. I know it is bad to wish things like that for a "friend", but this time around you just need an "eye opener" to see why things have always gone kaput for you! Tak pe ... satu hari nanti, kau tau lah apa yang aku rasa. Tuhan tu Maha Adil lagi Saksama.

* i was very angry when i wrote this ... *sigh*

Just When I Thought I am All Over It

I saw it when I was at the tasik yesterday evening, just by instinct I turned around. And as much as I dreaded it, I saw the mother of all signs this morning -- right in front of me. I tried my very best to avoid it. I even put up a front. Tapi sampai bila? Is this the road of no return?

Who?

Something from Helen. Thanks dearie.

There comes a point in your life when you realise:

who matters,
who never did,
who won't anymore ...
and who always will.
So, don't worry about people from your past.
There's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.

Thank You 2009

31st December 2009 ... wow ... cepatnya masa berjalan. It has been a very hectic year for me tahun ini. Alhamdulillah, syukur kepada Tuhan for giving me strength to finish my journey dengan jayanya. I came back to Malaysia for good and started a new life in Penang some months ago. With all the ups and downs, life has been truly 'colorful' for me so far. May the new year bring good health, peace and happiness to all of us, no matter where we are. Amin.

Signing off ...

Kadang-kadang

Kadang-kadang ada perkara yang hanya kita sahaja yang patut tahu.

Dan kadang-kadang, hanya masa sahaja yang menjadi faktor penentu.

Mungkin ...

agaknya ...

Syukur

Sesungguhnya Allah itu

Maha Mengetahui

dan

Maha Mengasihi

DihantarkanNya perkhabaran gembira di kala hati ku luka lara ...

Syukur Alhamdulillah

untuk setiap apa yang ku lalui

Kau ...

Kau
yang
ku
sayang